Desire is Everything
By endeavor, diligence, discipline and self-mastery,
let the wise person make of them selves an island that no flood can overwhelm.”
We all have a kind of intuition that somehow more is possible in our lives. We have a yearning to explore life more deeply, to know life more fully, more freely, and we deeply long to know love. In the depths of our consciousness we have an urge to evolve. We are driven to find answers to fundamental age-old questions such as, What is the meaning of life? Why am I here? What is this life all about? Is there a God? Is there more to life than what I am experiencing? Surely there must be a different way to experience life, where my questions can get answered, where I begin to understand my longing? These questions and this impulse to evolve is alive in you too, otherwise you would not be reading this book.
Often people get connected to this longing and these kind of fundamental questions when their life gets disrupted, or when someone has endured much suffering or a great loss. Sometimes we find this longing awakened through a blissful experience of life. Perhaps we grasp a glimpse of what a beautiful miracle life is, or an intimate moment in nature has us experiencing the intimate interconnectedness of everything. An event or experience might have us be shaken up and this longing within gets fired up. Relationship struggles or a break-up can push us into this longing. As we let ourselves follow this longing, we will allow ourselves to open up more deeply. Our life will open up and many truths and understanding will start to be revealed to us.
Let yourself listen to your longing; explore the hunger of it, explore the curiosity of it, experience the passion behind it. Your life will open up for you in ways you could never have imagined.
In spiritual life, in the search for truth and God, desire is everything. Desire is a force that moves you in your spiritual life, and it moves you in your material life. The situations that you create are largely based upon your desires. Just as your material life is shaped by your desires, so too is your spiritual life. It is only by spiritual desire that one makes spiritual advancement.
Spiritual desire is to meditation what the sun is to human life, we need the sun to keep our life forces going, and we need spiritual desire to sustain our focus and endeavors in each moment of meditation.
Everything stems from your spiritual desire. You can see spiritual desire as your motivation, your intention, your drive to improve and evolve, your desire for love. Whatever you call it, this kind of desire is a feeling within, and is what sustains your focus as you meditate.
This is a very important teaching to contemplate and meditate on.
Ask yourself: ‘What does spiritual desire mean to me regarding my meditation practice?’
Buddha highlighted two profound teachings about human desire that can help us gain deeper knowing:
- Desires of the flesh are the root cause of human suffering. (It is actually the ego-desires which manifest as attachments that bind us to some kind of suffering.)
- Spiritual desire is essential for spiritual advancement,
So how do we bring these points about spiritual desire into practice?
Let’s consider our reasons to meditate. There are many different reasons why people want to meditate. One could say that there’s a range that begins with using meditation to gain the benefits of letting go of stress and tension, as a way to relax. Meditation could help us to better find our way through life’s many challenges and difficulties, so allowing us to better deal with our humanness. Meditation can provide an important key practice for spiritual seekers wanting for enlightenment and oneness, union with God.
Some of the reasons why people say they want to meditate are often:
- Wanting to let go of something
- Seeking truth
- Peace of Mind
- Seeking answers, clarity or understanding
- Needing to feel love & acceptance
- Wanting to get freer of something negative or destructive
- Desire for healing
- Desire for more than life has to shown
- Desire for self realisation, enlightenment, completion
- True-self manifestation
- Longing for God, Spiritual Connection, Divine Love, Spiritual Home
It is important for you to be in touch with what your own true, personal reasons to meditate are. This does not need to match something you might have read or heard about, or what others have said meditation is supposed to bring.
When you start your meditation, you have prepared your space, and you can sit down. Close your eyes - start going within and focus on the deepest part of your heart. Calmly and honestly ask yourself:
- “Why do I sit down and go within right now?”
- “What do I want from meditating?”
- “What is my deepest heart’s desire?”
Trust what comes for you. Write it down if you like.
It’s a simple yet important question to never lose sight of, because the very reason why you want to meditate is like the root of a tree, that serves as the place from which all your endeavors and advancement stems. It will help you to gain more from your meditations and sustain your practice over the long term.
So for example, if your reasons to meditate have to do with wanting more harmony and balance in your life, then that is the desire which comes more into focus as you sit there. If you feel you need to make some kind of inner change, more inner peace or simply a sense of improvement all around that you would like to achieve in your life, then that is your desire, or if your intention is to find a deeper connection to God or Source, then you start to become more in touch with that desire as you go into meditation.
Spiritual desire is an actual feeling within that is accessible at any moment, while in meditation, or any other time. Some might describe spiritual desire as a magnetic force that pulls one deeper. With focus you will come to know and trust what your desire feels like, the power it carries, and how it helps you within.
Accessing this feeling is up to you. It will increase with practice, however you can get a sense of it straight away.
A deeper part of you knows what to do when you go within, and knows how to trust your desire and the experiences that come as a result of your endeavor, even if your conscious mind cannot comprehend it. Your sincere desire and trust to go deeper, will set forces in motion to help you attain the most from each meditation.
You will often not know with your conscious mind how or why this assistance has helped you and you cannot truly know the effect that your spiritual endeavor will bring. You cannot know ahead of time what your meditation experience will be or feel like, so at this point it is important to remember that,
You cannot do it right, You cannot do it wrong,
You can only let go and trust where your intention, focus and desire takes you.
During meditation, there will be many times when you will feel the need to increase your spiritual desire, in a kind of surge. These are times when you just trust some feeling within of wanting or needing to really focus your attention acutely on awakening more desire. Sometimes this will help you to face some uncomfortable feelings, or help you break free from some obstacle in the moment.
The way to find more desire is to simply seek for more desire, you can want and ask from within to access more desire. If you desire to have more desire, it will come. The very instant you ask, that very moment there is a response from the Universe and you have more desire. That is a law of Spirit; the very instant you ask that very moment comes the response.
The more desire you give to going within, the more spiritual movement will follow, however feeling your desire awaken during meditation may result in something that doesn’t feel comfortable or familiar. We will talk about these type of situations and how to deal with them later in the course.
Once you trust while focusing in on your spiritual desire, you might notice something from within that starts to pull on you.
This inner pull is from God, beyond the mind’s understanding.
This inner pull is what you can trust when you’re meditating, and nobody can tell you exactly in what direction this pull is going to take you, or how the pull is going to feel. This pull is always there, like a magnetic pull. And whether you realise it or not with your mind, this pull is what you can trust when you go within, and it is actually what we seek when going within. A deeper truer part of us wants to yield to this inner pull, we want to surrender to it.
The more in touch you are with your spiritual desire, the easier it is to trust this inner pull when you are in meditation. If you can recognise that you have this kind of desire for more light and truth, trust anyway, and let it increase when you are meditating, you can make great strides towards whatever kind of growth you are seeking, even and especially if it is for full union with God.
When a person really desires something,
the universe conspires to help them to realise their dream.
Two important points regarding desire:
- Desire is the beginning of how you become more open to God’s direction for you, because in meditation desire itself begins with a degree of humility.
- Desire is how you create and sustain more openness and connection to God.
- In spiritual life, in the search for truth, desire is everything.
- Start your meditation with a focus on the deepest part of your heart and ask yourself: “What is my reason to go within right now?”
- The reason you want to meditate is like the root of a tree, in that it serves as the deeper place from which all your endeavor and advancement stems.
- Spiritual desire is an actual feeling within that is accessible at any moment during meditation or at any other time.
- The more in touch you are with your spiritual desire, the easier it is to trust the inner pull when you are in meditation, and the more you will gain from your meditation.
- Desire to have more desire and it will come.
Schedule a fifteen minute meditation for yourself.
You can play some soft instrumental music if you like. Start your meditation by dropping your attention to the deepest part of your heart.
Ask yourself :
- What is the reason for me to meditate right now?
- When you identify it, write it down. You may find more than one reason.
- For the remainder of the meditation, sit with your eyes closed and focus your attention on the feeling of this desire which you wrote down.
- Trust where this takes you.